happy friday 13th

okay, it's been a hot minute. i know that. but it would take a hot 10 years to explain what i've been doing so i'm just going to post a very vague blog post that will probably not really make sense to anyone but it might trigger some deep thoughts in you, so that's why i'm writing it. i've never really been good at keeping jobs. technically, my longest job was at a kid's clothing store in canada. i worked there for 2 years but for most of it i was only working one shift a week. because after 3 months, i knew i hated that place. but when i tried to quit, they were so nice and promised to work around my university schedule (which i blamed for quitting - it was a lie, obviously. i have never prioritized university). my truly longest job is the one i am currently doing. it's at a food store (i know, such an improvement). i started here october 2019. and i handed in my notice last week. i have multiple reasons for leaving this job. in one sentence, i'm basically leaving because my capitalist bosses are making us deny entry to people not wearing masks and there's a boy in england that i'd rather spend my time with. it's the type of situation that i'm likely to look back on and think, "wow i am such a stupid hoe." which like... true. fair enough. i'm giving up a full-time job in the middle of a pandemic. to move to england. and be unemployed. isn't life amazing? you really can do whatever the hell you want sometimes. is it a good thing? let's stay its a good thing!!! because the alternative literally gives me anxiety.

24 & who am i?

Hello to this space. It's been a while. Again.

For the first year since 2015, I didn't write a post on my birthday. Madness! It wasn't that eventful, it was during lockdown and also during my latest "who am i / what is life" phase. 

Honestly, I think it'd be a lot of hassle to go through everything that's happened this year. The important bits are that I moved back in with my parents, I now live in Scotland, and I now experience night terrors and sleep paralysis. I guess you could say I've had quite the glow-up. 

In actual good news, I've got into twitter. It's so freakin funny - did everyone know this? I always thought twitter was boring and only professionals used it. But that's what linkedin is all about. I only ever log onto my linkedin once a month. I take that time to like the newest post by the United Nations and then call it a day.

But anyway, I thought I'd start using this space a bit more to kind of... keep on top of my thoughts n shit. The sleep paralysis stuff is WACK, and I am hoping that will get fixed pretty freakin soon. I mean, I'm not sure what to do about it. Do I call a doctor? Ugh, what a hassle for real.